Just Breathe

It seems i am on my own again
It seems i'm losing friends
And i know you will soon be gone too
For this is too much for you to bare

In the morning when i'm paralyzed
My tears are falling like rain
And when i see too many people
I fear i might lose control again

And when my head is spinning in circles
And when my heart is pounding so fast
And when my breath is running short
And when my knees are ready to collapse

I hate myself for letting you down
I hate myself for being weak
I hate myself for being afraid
I hate myself and that's okay

But you can't see it and you can't feel it
So you cannot understand why
You say that i'll be fine, it will be fun
But i will not be fine and it won't be fun

Believe me when i say that
I don't want to live this way
I want to make a change
But the demon is here so not today

And when my head is spinning in circles
And when my heart is pounding so fast
And when my breath is running short
And when my knees are ready to collapse

I hate myself for letting you down
I hate myself for being weak
I hate myself for being afraid
I hate myself and that's okay

At least i have my poetry

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